YES DARLING IM IN LOVE WITH YOU

“ pag nagmahal ka , magtira ka para sa sarili mo”

Sabi sa kanta “too much love will kill you”, pero nakapagtataka na hanggang ngayon buhay pa ako . bakit? Siguro kasi yung buong buhay ko wala na kong ginawa kung ang magmahal ng lubos , mula sa Diyos,pamilya , hanggang sa huling balat ng kendi na kinain ko mahal ko , mahal ko lahat !kaya immune na immune na ako . madali akong ma-attach sa isang bagay , siguro ganun talaga pag ka sentimental kang tao, ikaw lagi yung nagmamahal  ng lubos kesa dun sa counterpart mo ,ako yun ! akong ako , kaya minsan sa sobrang taas ng pagmamahal ko sa isang tao , ganun din kataas yung huhulugan ko kapag ako nasaktan , SOBRANG SAKIT, yun ang bagay na alam kong kadikit na /kasunod na, parang matik na ba .. pero ako kahit ilang beses na kong Umakyat  ng napakataas , Nahulog ng napakataas at nasaktan ng napakasakit , hindi parin ako tumitigil , sabi nga ,”commiting mistake once is ok , but twice youre an ass” wala akong pakialam kahit magmuka pa kong Ass, kasi para sakin hindi mistake ang pag ibig ,kahit kelan hindi isang pagkakamali ang pagmamahal ,siguro sa ibang bagay pwede pa, pero pagdating kasi sa Feelings iba na e,when I said feelings I mean feeling of being inlove . ibang iba , kahit alam mong mali , kahit alam mong isusugal mo lahat ng emotion mo , parte ng katawan , pera , oras isusugal mo bawat Segundo ng buhay mo , goh ka pa din , bakit? Kasi nagmamahal ka . sa lahat ng feeling na mararamdaman mo sa buong buhay mo , yung pag ibig ang hindi mo macocontrol, kasi pag yan dumating at dumapo sayo, parang kanser hindi mo mapipigilan lala-la , unti unting kakainin yung laman loob mo , utak puso isama mo na yug ATAY,

Ang pagmamahal ng sobra ay parang pag kain ng chocolate , sobrang sarap pero pag sumobra hindi lang diabetes, pagtaba, pagkasira ng ngipin at marami pang ibang sakit ang makukuha mo pag nasobrahan ka, very mainstream at gas gas na pero totoo siguro yung laging payo ng mama ,papa , tiyahin , kapatid,bespren,kaopismate,pari,boss,at yung mga taong pinagkwentuhan mo na ng lablife mo na palaging pumapalpak: “ pag nagmahal ka , magtira ka para sa sarili mo” .

Stages of being  Inlab (in the wrong way)

1) stage 1- mahal mo sya,gusto mo sya lagging katext ,kausap at pagnikikita mo sya walang paglagyan ang kasayahan mo, sa kanya umiikot ang mundo mo .alam mo na mahal ka din nya ,magpapaksal kayo at habang buhay magsasama,.

2)Stage 2 –Mahal na mahal mo sya , dito na dumarating yung pagseselos ng pakonti konti ,hindi mo lang sya gustong laging makausap , gusto mo din syang laging kayakap , kahit hindi pa kayo kasal ibibigay mo na ang sarili mo !oo ganun katindi kahit stage 2 palang.

3) Stage 3 – o mini paranoia, hindi lang selos kundi poot yung nararamdaman mo pag nakita mong may kausap syang iba – TAKE NOTE : Kausap lang ha , pero sa paningin mo nagsesex na sila.dito din pumapasok yung linyang,”lahat hahamakin para lang sa iyo mahal ko” totoo yan . hindi na kailangang ielaborate pa.

4)Stage 4 – sa sobrang pagmamahal mo sa kanya , kahit anong pagkakamali ang gawin nya sayo , kahit na ilang beses ka pang masaktan anjan lka parin handa syang patawarin , pwede din tawaging “NUMBNESS stage “ o martir ka na .pwede ka ng sabitan ng sampaguita at tayuan ng rebulto,sa sobrang kadakilaan mo.PWEDE ka ng SAMBAHIN !

5)Stage 5- mini Malignant- konting konti nalang  BALIW ka na .Obsess kung baga ! yung kulang nalang igapos mo sya , ikulong  at lagyan ng super glue yung mga kamay nyong dalawa para sayong sayo na sya.yung tipong kahit alam mong isa ka nalang na nagmamahal go parin ,kahit ano gagawin mo para mapunan yung gusto at pangangailangan nya ,kahit na magpakababa ,at lokohin mo na pati sarili mo mahal mo parin, in short Diyos mo na sya.

LAST STAGE –Stage 6 : idadaan ko nalang sa example

(girl baliw version)

Tonyo : hon may inuman kami .

Bebang:san ? bakit?

Tonyo: jan lang sa may malapit na bar,birthday ng office mate ko

Bebang: may babae ?

Tonyo: meron tatlo pero office mate ko lang

Bebang: (in renz verano voice) SASAMA AKO.]

Tonyo: pero hon kasi office mate lang

Bebang : SASAMA AKO !

Tonyo: heto nanaman tayo.matagal na kong nasasakal sayo, ayoko na ng ganito,gusto ko ng makipaghiwalay.

Bebang: Hindi !(in renz verano birit voice)

Tonyo:pe….r

BEBANg : MAGPAPAKAMATAY AKO (in renz verano highest note voice)

Ganyan ang pag ibig , masarap , nakakainspire, nakakaganda ng araw ,nakakapagtama ng mga mali,pero pag sumobra, lintik mababaliw ka ,sisirain yung buhay mo hanggang sa wala ng matira .hanggang sa pati utak mo nakain na ,masarap mag mahal,masarap mahalin. Pero mas masarap kung ang pagmamahal sa isang tao , ay sasamahan muna ng pagmamahal sa sarili.

Yun lang♥♥♥

Color Me

But the Sad thing about me being loved, always come and go,Love never stay ,just like the waves,perhaps i am always just  a chapter .

BUKO

sa sobrang daming pick up lines ngayon wala na kong ibang maisip kundi ikaw , wow! naranasan mo na ba yung pakiramdam na parang lumulutang sa ulap ?laging masaya , laging may parang may piesta? yung lahat ng tignan mo maganda?, lahat ng gawin mong mali , TAMA? kung naramdaman mo na,naramdaman mo na ang feeling ng pagiging InLABS at   pag ikaw inlabs , kahit siguro basura , magagwan mo ng pick up line..

para ito sa mga taong araw araw inlove ,sa mga maiinlove palang , sa mga nagkakainlaban,sa mga baon na baon sa puso ng isat isa. , sa mga matagal ng inlove , sa mga walang pag asa sa mga ayaw paawat, sa mga adik sa Love,sa mga sinusumpa, mga nagsusumpaan, sa mga taong nabuhay sa pagibig, , para sa mga taong nagmamahal ...


ang Pagibig ko ay parang isang buong diksyunaryo , sobrang daming salita , pero IKAW lang ang tanging kailangan ko ..

IniiSMALL ka ba nila ?,hayaan mo iniiBIG  naman kita .....♥

Dati ang langka ,prutas lang , pero nung nakilala kita ang 

langka , naging  pag ibig ko sayo, LANGKAtapusan .

-ayoko na , ayoko na sakin , pwede ba sayo nalang ako ?

Sana bukas maliit na ako para kasya na ako jaN sa puso mo ..♥

Parang wala ako sa sarili ko , siguro na-sayo ako ?

pag wala ka, cool lang,  coolang ang araw ko ..

sana eroplano ka na lang at Airport naman ako. Para kahit anong mangyari sa akin pa rin ang landing mo.

Ang lovelife ko parang ikaw, kasi parang ikaw nalang kulang..

Lotto ka ba ? , SUSUGAL KASI AKO KAHIT GAANO KATAGAL ,MAPANALUNAN LANG KITA.

DOTA ka ba ? , kasi habang tumatagal lalo akong NAAADIK sayo.

Sana gitara ka na lang para habang kumakanta ako yakap yakap kita.♪♫

-Sa Tuwing nakikita kita , nakakakita ako ng MAPA , MApapangasawa

- kahit kalian hiNdi ako nagkaroon ng bisyo, pero nung makilala kita , hindi lang ako nagkabisyo , naADIK pa ako.

-para ka palang pagkabata ano ? , NAKAKAMISS

♥♥♥ Ibenta mo na yang Bahay mo at dito ka na tumira sa puso ko .

kung hindi ka pa marunong lumangoy , magaral ka na ..kasi malulunod ka sa pagibig ko.

Sawa ka na ba sa pagigiling ikaw?, bakit di mo subukang tayo nalang ?

-       Frappe , Latte, Cappuccino , amerikano , Barako , lahat yan masasarap , pero ang pinaka masarap na natikman ko , ay yung tuwing KAPEling kita .

Buko ka ba ? , Ikaw kasi ang BUhay KO ♥

Bakit Kaya ?

bakit kaya may mga lalaking asshole?

Something new

I want something new ,

want something different .i want new people in my life , I want to do somethings else

something I havent done before ,

I want to do things I will love or things I love for a long time ,  and havent got the chance to

do  i want to do things,i will never get tired of , even for the longest of time even forever

I wanna be somebody else,

for I am never ordinary

for I never try to fit in

I want my voice to be heard ,

I want my ideas to be considered ,

I want to do things that will creat a big impact in the next generation

things that will live forever

things I am going to be proud of myself,

things that will make my family proud and everyone who knows me .

I wanted to do things that will make me happy and afterall get paid to  something else.. i don't know what, but someth'n else.

♥♥♥

Photo Diary (Drama)

Everyone is a mystery be fascinated

Happiness ,Love,Family,Dreams and all about Life, the perfect way to describe this Sunday , started the day listening to Bo Sanchez Words of Wisdom, and i just thought that this weeks topic is perfect for me, though i am not gonna elaborate word by word anymore,i just would  like to share thoughts i got first from the preach , and the other from the film ;

 "Everyone is a mystery be fascinated" each person you knew , is God's way of showing what your purpose in this world is ,each person who enters your life is a mystery, people met not only by chance but for a purpose .

"When you learn How to Die , You'll Learn How to live"perfect to describe what YOLO means ,  :actually i got this line first from the Book TUESDAYS WITH MORRIE, thesame as how the movie TUHOG Shows, Live Life to the fullest .

♥♥♥

what would you want to say to a 13 year old you?

your life will be so great , When you turn 21 you’ll be fucked up.

HIM

And then there’s this guy, who made a difference, in her life
It’s so funny how he do extremely nothing at all, but in a very extraordinary way , he helped her move on
He never notices and she doesn’t know why.
But every time they talk, there’s an unexplainable feeling,
Awkward it may seems, but they both enjoy it
When she is totally pissed, thoughts of him save the moment!
Good thing , he never leave her mind
She gets inspired by him,
She misses him every time she doesn’t see him
She never gets insecure, but every time she see him talk to other girl
She gets jealous,
She remember everything
She remember the first time she saw him, the first time he saw her,
first hellos
The first Good Morning text.  up to the first Goodnights
The first phone call she got from him.
 The first time they talk , they walk , the first time he holds her ..
She always remember how he made her world turn up side down
That day they kiss., the perfect first kiss
He might forget but she will always remember that day when fireworks are present in the air
He said “I love you”
She’s got a crush with his lips, she is so attracted in his eyes , but..
When people ask why ? ,she simply  smile, and say “i don’t exactly know why “
She whisper , maybe this is just how wonderful things work out.
But then she thought , They are far from being a couple,
 less than lovers but more than a friend,
There are things unlearned, they sometimes doesn’t understand,
There are words left unspoken ,
Days pass by.
Some things change
Things might have been different now,
Their phones are not ringing anymore
Something’s gone, just  like an old guitar, lack with string.
Like a river with no swan, like a no shoes run ..
Incomplete and painful
But then she thought  ..
“somethings might be different now, but that feeling ,that unexplainable thing they have will always last forever..”

 ♥♥♥

L.O.V.E

Love  is everywhere

But with Unspoken words …

Love usually exists  but do not live, 

 walk but never pass an inch,

just like a robot, 

a robot with no batteries

,Love  usually say a word but never speak,

 sing but never create a sound 

,Like a guitar with no string, 

or a drum with no stick 

,Life less , meaning less .

 We sometimes search for its existence

 , we sometimes ask

 ,I was dating since I was 15 

, where is he ?, is she at the mall ,

 does she wear a pink stilettos?

Is he a friend?, 

or a stranger I haven’t met ?

We all search for it ,

We all demand for a love that will never get tired,

a love that will understand and will never betray

 a love that will last a life time . 

some people found it , 

Some still searching for it 

Some doesn't know love exactly is in front of them 

,in every walk,IN EVERY TALK ,

 in every long  Jeepney ride ,in every smiles , 

or in every cries 

Love is everywhere 

in the neighbourhood, sitting at the bench , at the park , 

love is in every visit , 

in every gatherings, birthday parties , 

LOVE is surely there Love connects people ,

Love break the  rules , 

love makes us so stupid ,

Love makes us so intelligent ,

love gives hope love creates a new word, 

gives a new vowel ,

love writes a poem ,love makes a girl beautiful ,

love gives a little rain, and creates a rainbow, 

love arrives  in just a blink of an eye ,

love also vanish in just a snap.

love is selfish  ,love is foolish 

,love provokes , love forgives 

love correct mistakes ,

it gives us hundred reasons to smile ,

thousand reasons to cry ,and millions of reasons to live…

 it may come and go , it may stay for a long time ,

maybe just a visit ,temporary, 

maybe just one chapter of your life ,

but when love comes ,allow it to read 

every word .allow it to enter the deepest thoughts ,

to hold every breath, to capture every moment ,

to give melody to a song .allow it to enter your heart . 

love is everywhere ,

 you may not notice it,

your heart will be twisted , you will see fireworks ,butterflies in your tummy

snow in summer , day in the night ..you will see yourself insane , smiling and crying at the same time ..and before you know it …you've found what you been searching for all your life ,

 Love ..

♥♥♥

Friendship

life

and then she decided to write

one cold afternoon ,she's doing nothing , she's bored , she's hungry but she

doesn’t want to eat anything, she's thinking about him

and she's waiting for a message that wont actually come,

She's waiting all day long …

and funny how the raindrops from her window is dancing synchronized w/ the

Music from the radio ,the melody and the lyrics

keeps on reminding her how her life is so empty ,

always waiting in vain , always hopelessly romantic and always in complicated situation